my migraine came back today and i’m worried that it will eat up my life. i had thought i was beyond the migraines, at least these really bad days-long ones, but here i am again, back in the dark dark dark attic with the light from the tv turned way down (can’t watch movies, but You Tube is okay) and the light on my pc turned down, and on my phone, and a cloth over the lamp, and just damnit.
i had pt in the pool today and i felt great this morning. i didn’t hurry myself and was pretty calm (i’ve been wearing ear plugs which = such a better experience). anyhow it was sunny sunny today and during my session, i felt so light sensitive. i wore my goggles some of the time. then when i got to my car…it’s so hard to explain. it’s like i can’t really tell sometimes if i’m in pain, or rather my brain has a hard time recognizing a migraine if it doesn’t hurt in the same places as usual. this headache started with light (most of them do), i had to keep squinting up my eyes, but it hurt straight across my forehead, which is unusual, and i just couldn’t gauge what was happening.
so i drove home with a huge Sonic diet coke in my hand. made my lunch. and then it just hit me hard. and add to it i am so exhausted from the pt session. i was in constant movement for well over and hour. that is a huge leap from being mostly sedentary and maybe that….no. i don’t think it has anything to do with this. i think there’s something i’m missing…..i’m pretty sure that drinking liquor can cause a headache, but not always.
and i did smoke a cigarette last night…..could it be that lone cig?
but that makes no sense. my migraines were at bay. for some reason, they came back this month…was it the biopsy? followed by the epidural? could that be it, that my brain felt the biopsy was an assault, which it was of course, but such a….no it wasn’t all that minor. it was a small surgery as it turns out.
in any case, i’m not sure how to proceed. and dear gods, what if i end up not needing the botox? wouldn’t that be awesome? but geeze, what will happen to my forehead??
-r.
