my migraines may be back. i mean really back. i just came off a 12 day bender. and the headache is still here, lurking. f*****g lurker.
but, i am not going to let this down dog be kicked, this downward facing dog i am going to get moving. i have gotten moving.
get fit with rick! on youtube. i love this guy’s energy filming in front of the water in Dubai. lovely thing.
i just ordered my FITBIT after LOADS of consideration. i mean….really. too much time spent thinking and reading about this thing. so i ordered it and it will do just fine i am sure. these devices aren’t terribly accurate, they all have bugs and drawbacks, none is perfect. i had a POLAR in the past and got it out yesterday, but it is so old it is no longer supported by the company. i am going with FITBIT because Google owns them and there should be a better flow between devices. (and later, i can buy the lovely golden band)
but i didn’t buy it to use as a phone buddy with message alerts and all that rot. i am a person who would rather LESS phone interaction, not more. except…i am tempted by the watch that is a real phone…but it would likely drive me mad, so just not. when that technology is better i will get one because i would love to never, ever have to find my phone, pick it up, worry do i have pockets today?, etc.
so. i am also, on my way to counseling at noon, dropping by to join the Baptist fitness center. I hate hate HATE to be supporting the Southern Baptist Convention and the fundys, but it is the only local choice of its type and it is clear that we will NOT drive any further than just next door to us (only one major street over actually) to visit a gym on the regular. And it is not a LOT of money and I will just pretend that all of our fee is going to their foodbank program. or the maintenance of the soccer field that lots of kids of all colors use.
i have decided after MUCH consideration that i will NOT be using a food tracking app. i am going to do it old-school. i ordered a wellness journal that will do the same thing without all the pressure. i also need to start tracking everything for migraines again and this will be better for that i hope boy do i ever dwell in hope, Emily.
i have also ordered (it will be here today!!) some food/meals from Daily Harvest. I have thought about doing this for over a year and it is just time to try it. and here is sort of why–
my husband and i could not be any more different when it comes to eating–he wants variety, i want sameness. he wants spicy and wild, i want pretty much bland and plain. i can eat the same soup for days but he is bored after a couple of servings. he literally wants to eat something different for every meal. except for breakfast. i pretty much want to eat soup, cereal, bread, bacon, fruit. now, we both love fast food and we keep falling back to it over and over and over, no matter our good intentions. that’s where, I hope, Daily Harvest will come in.
i want for dale to have food to grab and heat up and eat without me worrying about cooking all the time. i love to cook, but i don’t like to constantly be trying to meet James’ needs which are difficult with his heart stuff and Dale’s need for variety. i am mostly interested in the smoothies, maybe the forager bowls. we will see if Dale likes any of it. it is not any more expensive than trying to keep him in salads and stuff. it is vegan and well-reviewed. i just wish the sodium was lower, but overall i am excited about it getting here and having a smoothie.
i also found a prepared meals service in Chattanooga, but you have to pick them up. we will see what we see
on dale’s end, he has a new high-end Lift Desk. i hope this helps with his back issues and that he gets moving more. he has felt our post-quit-cig weight gain keenly. and all the stress lately. there is so much to catch up on–
i am actually using my standing desk as i write this. yay! me!!
James is going to have surgery in Nashville on July 13th. Things are very hopeful. I am not sure why the doctor here in Chattanooga was so reluctant to say, yes, this faulty wire attached to the right side of his heart (leading up to the pacemaker) is the problem and if we go ahead and replace it his heart failure could be reversed. “could be.” not “will be.” i understand that this may not work, but i don’t understand why this doctor wouldn’t commit, or say i do not feel confident to do this surgery myself or i really don’t think this will help but that’s just my opinion. i don’t know why he didn’t say, look, this situation is shit and i know that James is a special case and i would like for the doctors in nashville to replace this lead and see if that fixes the problem. he said none of these things–what he did say, or seemed to say i swear he was squirming, was that he wished they had done a better job placing the lead in the first place and he wished that he could fix it but…ummm…i…well…maybe the people from St. Thomas will have other ideas. this doctor did not even refer James to cardiac rehab, something the first doctor we saw from St. Thomas did, it seemed, as a matter of course because it can IMPROVE HEART FAILURE.
should i be this frustrated? i’m not sure. there are not a whole lot of doctors to choose from here, not with this specialty and after all these years it seems like it would be nuts to start over with new staff and doctors for James, esp. when I will insist that he see the doctors at St. Thomas once a month if at all possible anyway.
still.
i even asked the nurse, “is my kid going to just drop dead?” and she said, “that’s why we have referred you to St. Thomas.”
i must stop writing about this now. and i must save the rest of my commentary for another post.
~r.
