to have so much such scars not enough to be colorblind not enough to have an autistic son and a legally blind son not enough i am so sorry to be such a bad mother i could not bake you properly and this knee and let's be honest the hips the wrists the ankles the knees both knees not enough the belly also the skin not enough no her life is all this and a broken head a moldering bed she loses the pounds such a smart thing and her body falls apart.
this head. i am worse. i am so stressed today. so so stressed. i am pressuring myself. pressuring myself the cooker is steaming it will blow all because i must work i must get busy i must do and do it is not enough i will not let it be enough i will take this broken body brain and lift it up the stairs and lift my clumsy body onto the horse and we will make a final run for it and it will be it is what it is.