however, not all is a fuzz. yesterday afternoon i doped up and dale and i went and bought a new fridge. snap. can't wait to get it. but these little windows of good feeling are the exception.
there is no rhyme or reason to it. it may be my gallbladder but it may not be. because it isn't aggravated by fat. i hope they have the results of my scan tomorrow.
the worse part is i don't have much mind to do useful things. i do have some time but when i take the medicine i'm just zonked for about three hours. i'm lucid now i'm writing now and was working on a critique earlier this morning. but thirty mins ago i was deep under water the place where words have to be chased.
in my stupor on Thursday and Friday i got inspired to do things. around the house. things i haven't done for a long time. i'm'a get out my easel. i'm'a keep the house cleaner. i'm'a cook meals. even when i don't want to or don't feel especially good.
and i thought of redoing the kitchen. we "need" a new counter we "need a new floor" we "need" new cabinets. then i thought really. would these things improve quality of life. no. but a bigger fridge will. so we have decided to give our kitchen an inexpensive face lift. i poked around the net for ideas. i am really inspired and will get started as soon as i can.
some of the things to be done just haven't gotten done. dale is not the best at following through on projects, although when he does the results are terrific. our built-in bookcases. our wood floors. and he can wire and plumb things, too. anyway, we have a microwave/venting unit to put above the range. we have a new can opener. we have a water-filtration system. we have a new backdoor. all we need is some paint, new cabinet and drawer knobs, and some elbow grease. and i am going to paint interesting things and hang them up as back splash. i will make it unique.
and we have decided to go cheap on the bathroom. no new vanity. no quartz or granite top. no new sink. we just don't need these things. we are going with a laminate top that will last a long time. we are keeping the old sink. we can put in a new toilet whenever we get around to it. and we are keeping the existing tacky as hell mirror because i have figured something marvelous to do with it. it will be unique. one of a kind.
the more i have typed the more lucid i've become. i have the heating pad on my belly. writing is helping me focus, and stay awake. thank you mister. you're my chum.
maybe i can read a while.