the book is almost done. i don't think i can do much more with it unless i lay it aside and come back to it a year or two years or ten years from now. which i am not going to do. it is not the last book i will write. it is only one of the books i have written. i want to write the next book please let me live long enough to write the next book. and the next.
i am tired and want to knock myself out and sleep all afternoon. a better plan would be to go to the pool or go see a friend but what i really want is to smoke and drink and throw up all the years of my life and start over so that i won't be so mean today so i want have this terrible evil desire to eat the heads off kittens and babies.