of course the book wasn't done. isn't done. is almost done. may forever be almost done. in a holding pattern.
but i have to let it go at some point. it's just that i fall more and more in love with it and think of more and more ways to love it even more. which may mean i've gone too far--footnotes. more and more fragmenting.
but of course fragmenting the thing is me being very kind and generous to/with the reader--
fewer endless blocks of text. fewer holes to fall into and flail your way out of. it is to struggle. it is to climb. readers don't especially love this.
the punctuation is quite interesting in this book. i seem to have broken free and am doing my own thing. and it's working. even Dale thinks it's working and he often groans over my punctuation.
because i'm having surgery next Friday, i would like to get the book to the agent before then, in case i die. or something.
but i have to remind myself that this is not a race. if the book isn't ready, it isn't ready. i must not let it fall in the pan. when i was living in the little white house, my mother always cautioned us to not walk hard across the kitchen floor when a cake was in the oven.
i haven't baked a cake in forever. i used to bake cakes all the time. i haven't done a lot of things in forever.
when i get back to work, to school, to teaching this fall, i will need to i hope to carve out make a schedule and not drive myself crazy trying to work everything in. but, since i've never been on a regular writing schedule, except when writing a novel, it shouldn't be a big deal. i often write most when i'm at my busiest.
the title is working and will change again. and again. i am usually excellently good with titles but this one eludes me.
the table of contents is massive. this is just the first page.
i compose on the computer. period. i am even doing all my editing on the computer. i have been dickering with myself about whether or not to print the thing out. it seems stupid not too, but even though i printed out Click, i'm not sure i really did much with the hard copy.
bring it own Star Trek!