I have been too ill to work, to even do submissions. But I feel like myself again and I need to make a loose plan to go forward with the novel. I have that awful reluctance, where you want to do a thing but you don't. Like my stretching. I love doing my stretching but the leg stretches are difficult and I think I'll just skip those, though I do not. I have that I want to work on this but I haven't. That maybe I can't work on that. That maybe I'm not really a writer. It is stupid. But it is there.
But something interesting did happen. The agent asked me about the novel and I was able to give her a synopsis. Evidently I do know what's going on in this book, not exactly not will happen, but a pretty clear idea. This is almost scary. And very new.
Mentioning new. I like to be always evolving and changing with my work. But is this a good thing? There is so much blah blah about finding your voice, but does your voice remain your voice if it keeps changing? And which would you rather have? As a reader? With a rock band. With a fashion designer. The evolution of a visual artist is expected and often documented. But writers? Don't writers develop a voice and just keep singing? Do I even want to be that writer?