i am not depressed. we went down for my brother's birthday and had a lovely conversation. if this keeps up, i will have to hang out with him.
i have lost 13 pounds and i added two 15 min. workout to my goal for this week. that's two trips to the pool. i have been stretching about 20 min. in the morning and if i weren't doing it i don't know how much more i'd be hurting. at least i can move.
i am calling the docs tomorrow. i have to see someone. i just can't let this get worse. and i am doing research and doing the fucking gluten-free thing. i will start tomorrow. i am willing to try it. if it doesn't help, then i will give up night shades too. and if none of that helps i will get into a warm tub and never get out. just sing and drink tea and club soda and coffee and eat raspberries and smoke cigarettes and then go under and die.
and i'm going to get dale to do up an alarmy thing on my phone so i get up every hour and walk about.
mood = okay (though oxy does bring it up) (doc says i can go up 100 on the lamitcal but i don't know if i want to) (will ask my doc if it's possible at all if the lithium is causing the hand/shoulder pain. it is one of the uncommon side-effects and it does seem that this began when i began the lithium. still trying to figure this out)