so at two thirty i took the fucking S(youknowhwatmonster) and was drowsy stupid this morning. and with no diet coke to jump start me i was pretty dreary and dumb until i took a nap. then i woke up and felt fine, mood steady. i cooked dinner for friends and had a bit of wine and it just isn't worth it. at least not when i'm sleepy. it just zonked me. i couldn't get my words out. so i made some coffee and started to feel much better.
the sleep disruption is really bad. part of it, a big part, is waking up in pain. but i just do not know all the reasons. but to be on the safe side, i am going to take Seroquel right now. okay. i just did, along with my other nightly meds. and i soaked my eyes. and scrubbed my eyes. and washed my face. and lotioned my face. and brushed my teeth. it's been a good day.