the gyre has turned. the switch is thrown. whatever the thing is that makes me write that drives me has rushed into me full force. i am not manic. but i worry it will come.
dale and i are doing limited social things. when we go out with friends we don't come back home and drink wine and stay up late which is bad for me and i know it. so limiting how long i socialize is a very good thing. it's like my therapist says--you want that high, whatever it is, a buzz from sugar from wine from swimming from dancing from happy happy happy. whatever it is you want it to last and last and last.
since Tuesday i have been quite steady. or steady what passes as steady for me. i still have not heard from doctor about lithium level and am still on 300 mgs. i will see him on wednesday and hope to get something going. it's really such a bounce, to go from depression when it's so deep and dank and then to come out of it. it is a rhythm i should expect and except and be quite used to at this point. but evidently i'm not. used to it. yet.
will also see sleep doc next week. i am having difficulty. instead of sleeping too little i am sleeping too much falling asleep during the day. which hasn't happened for a long time.