Was I manic or just me? That is always the question, Horatio. I think I was just me, just having a good time, but what a TREMENDOUS amount of energy it takes to be that happy on fire laughing laughing how are you i'm great you too swell. Swell.
Yesterday was okay but ultimately frustrating because I went to order faucet assembly for bath/shower and it took TWO hours. Over. And when I got there my tire was flat. So Dale came and I sat and sat with Dude trying to get the thing ordered. Finally. Had to drive Dale's car home, which was fine. It's a stick but I mostly didn't jerky jerk. And I took the freeway home which was odd as I usually avoid it. Plague like. Felt defiant. Felt blow me. Felt no big thing the sea will part won't you Moses yes, lord, yes. Confident. As i approached my exit I got out phone called Dale looked down knew it was a risk did it anyway felt defiant. Felt blow me. Felt fully fuck you asshole. Was not scared at all.
But the day was strange as I think I may have been Lena Dunham or something acting like Lena Dunham some sort of other person, in but also not in my body head and a freezing wind of wit and almost cruel and so odd very irritable. Yesterday was pool day which did not happen but I don't think that was it. Just an odd this is me also who is this person is this me kind of day. And it started Thursday at Crackle Barrel. It started with a huge dose of fun fun fun. Which can be so dangerous.
But good grief. Stop with the microscope. You are okay.
You will do a lot of things today. Get in pool. Search for vanity or sink. Meet with tile guy.
Is this thing on?
haven't heard from doctor about Lithium levels.
realized last night that i may have only been taking 1/2 my Lamitcal dose, but I don't think that's the case. it's just that i haven't had it filled since September, according to pharmacist.
mood pretty steady really.
sleep was off the last couple nights, but last night normal. about 7 hours. wanted to get up when i woke up.
loving my new mattress.