had friends over last night for dinner, new friends. a very nice time. had a couple of glasses of wine over three hours. had pasta and salad for dinner plus some bread and butter.
slept eight and one half hours.
must see if the wine has an fallout me fallout fall off from wine.
must sleep today so i can maybe make midnight tonight. may not make midnight tonight.
do think mood better without SAM-E, but consistent vertigo. it's really pretty bad.
need to plan how to make it to AWP and have a good time and not overdo. need to figure if this is possible. i do not want to give in to this disease, to be afraid to travel to do things by myself. figure out how to ride about in one of those carts at airport. check bag. carry only backpack onto plane. can i check my breathing machine?
had labs done yesterday. pretty sure i need more lithium. or that i'm toxic on lithium. that thyroid is out of whack. she will always think assume hope for the worse. but then again, not.
must learn to hope for the best.
must stop playing budget game which is obsessing over budget tickering toying moving money about frittering obsessing. must stop obsessing over investments. and taxes.
oh, i haven't check Click status in a few days. that's progress.
must hang out with friends girlfriends go shopping for hats.
i am hoping for a good day.
She's keeping a record--
still on 300 mgs Lithium at night
still on 800 mgs Muscinex at night
still on red yeast, isitol, co q-10, mag. and extra calcium
depressed on Sunday, but not yesterday. it's tuesday, new year's eve. pace pace pace.