I've been in counseling for so long, years and years and years. I refuse to worry and whine about the past. I've done that. And done it again. Luckily, my counselor tends to be very pragmatic, but she doesn't quite "get" me, and we often are at cross purposes.
All this means that I must be more directive, but this can be difficult. I think I will have her talk me through a meditation/deep breathing/relaxing session for this is what I need.
I have made much mental progress these last few weeks/days/moments. I know what I'm doing. I can steer this ship, with God's help, within the body, the source. I only need to modulate myself.
Just now I must jump.
(one thing i know for sure. i must never hurry.)