but really, i have to get on with it. i had my day off yesterday, truly off. i barely moved. i watched hours of law and order svu which was is a tonic. the day was a blur.
and add to that blur the no writing no writing for a week i am of course unfocused i am of course fixated on my body my hands my back but, really, i need to get on with it get up and about with it.
go to the bank
take james shopping
buy myself sweaters i may buy myself sweaters as i have no sweaters
watch xmas movie with james
call my father and brother
lay out meat to thaw
pick up the upstairs
work on new mentoring project
i will not
nurse small hurts pricks of the heart of the hands the body
sit all day in my chair
and so the day will be better, a saturday, the day of great dread. i will fly through the day into the evening which is a different thing entirely.
(i will also make a large decision. i will settle on an address book. really. this is a huge decision. i have had my current address book for over twenty years. and no, the computer is a poor choice i'll not have it.)