becky and i are shooting for twice a week together at/in the pool. i really want to do this. i really want to follow through with this. i need this. for the exercise. and to keep myself from turning too far into the interior of myself. this will be a good thing for me.
alex is very very hopefully moving out. which means my life will change. we have been paying him to do chores and now i will be doing the chores. which means keeping after the garbage, the recyclables, the dishes. which means vacuuming once a week. dusting. picking up clutter. cleaning the bathrooms. i used to do all these things, but it’s been a while. since I got sick. but it will be good for me to do these things again. I need to do these things.
and i will get to clean my new FRIDGE!!!! i should make myself a goal to keep the fridge clean all the time. i have made a goal to never buy anything perishable unless I’m going to use it within two days. i am terrible about buying food with good intentions, very good intentions to cook it, and then not cooking it and throwing it away.
i have also made the goal of only eating dinner out once a week. even if we eat stupid/dumb unhealthy things, it’s cheaper than eating out. i made a list of simple 1 + 1 + 1 meals. from easy to difficult. and i am allowing myself to eat the way i grew up, which is something the nutritionist made me feel fine about. i grew up eating canned vegetables unless vegetables were fresh and in-season. i grew up eating cookies and cakes. and frozen fruit. i grew up eating hamburgers and hot dogs and this strange noodle concoction that my mother called spaghetti. i grew up eating cornbread and biscuits. and fried potatoes. and sugar. the only thing wrong with all this food was that there were no limits put on anything. but i am a grownup now and i’ve learned to limit myself and i’m’ a goin eat what i want. i love rice-a-roni. i love yellow rice. i love canned green beans and baby green peas. i love opening boxes and pouring things out and adding water to them. i love easy. sometimes i like elaborate and fancy. but mostly i just need for things to be easy.
i have even made a list of cop-out meals if we are just unwilling to do anything at all. like ice cream. potato chips. cereal. popcorn. nothing. nothing is always a good choice if you really don’t want to eat enough to prepare food.
boo I feel like I should do something. what should I do?