my child my little boy my younger son my baby boy born august 13, 1989 has moved out of my house our house my baby boy my son who should have moved out long ago has leaped from the nest i hope he does well but he is so far from the bus route and he can't drive and he's legally blind and doesn't have a job yet and he does have a great roommate but of course he is my baby and i am worried but so pleased and proud and i laughed cried a little on friday when i said dale when will ya'll move his bed and he said it's already done and i said oh no he's not sleeping here tonight then i cried and laughed and cried and he is my baby and now he is not sleeping in my house.
Woot!! Bo! Woot!
i am feeling much better and since my doc told me today to start having warm prune juice mixed with Miralax twice a day i feel pretty sure i will be okay. surely.
i think all my health issues, ALL of them are a result of being morbidly obese and not taking care of myself over the last few years. and i refuse to except that i have this "disorder" and will not be able to eat fresh fruits and veggies anymore. i think it's dumb. i think it's medication-related. and sloth-related. and if it isn't, i will accept it then. not now. i will not accept it. i can accept that i need to eat small meals. that's fine. but no raspberries? no blueberries? no Brussels Sprouts? pshaw.
i am going back to work in the fall. i think. i am waiting to hear back about which comp courses are available. i am glad about this. i feel well enough to do it. period. i am well enough to do it. i will be well enough.
i was bitchy awful mean cat vicious yesterday afternoon. but much better today. i expect to be better tomorrow. i will be helping alex move a few things and probably buy a few things more. and i will pick up new bite guard. and hope to make it to the pool.
and i will keep my house clean. and keep up with the recyclables. and the garbage. and when my new fridge gets here i am going to keep it clean clean clean. and i will help dale work on the house. and i will make time to do things that are important and necessary. and spend more time with dale. and maybe a little bit of time with god as i have been speaking to him when i close my eyes at night.
and i will write and i will write and i will write and i will write. a lot. before i die. whenever that is.
go with god.