"I fully believe that there has never been a single soul that has not been possessed by the Christ, even in the ages before the human Incarnation in Jesus. [I would replace Jesus with God]
What most religion treats as separate (matter and Spirit, humanity and divinity) has never been separate from the beginning: Spirit is forever captured in matter, and matter is the place where Spirit shows itself. It is one sacred world."
And I've decided to view/it practice it this way. I'm better off for it. As my friend Janet says of herself, "I'm better off." It's not about belief. It's about doing. What could be better than focusing my thoughts when I get up? What could better than a little charge for my intellect, my spirit?
And as for my mental health, I will take the AA route. (I disagree with so much of what they do). But the serenity prayer (you will find it in Descartes' Method, the four moral maxims) or a prayer a mantra what you will, I need that. It is like deep breathing. It will encourage deep breathing. I will be in the breath. The universe with acknowledge me and pet my head.
Choice. I always have a choice.
After talking with Kim (my therapist) and Dale, I have decided to push ahead with AWP. The worse thing is I will have to turn around and come back home. And I will be staying at the HILTON. If I can't handle things, I will just stay in the room and order room service and watch movies. It will be okay. Between now and then I will walk. And get into the water, as I did yesterday. It drains me, but it also gives me energy. Sometimes. The key is to limit. I was in 15 minutes yesterday. It was plenty.
Last night, we had Brussels sprouts roasted in the oven. So good. The house all stanky. So so good. I want to have them every week. Will look up easy recipes for ways to roast other veggies.
Will now prepare for workshop.